I realize that I give up easily, when things do not seem to go as I want them to, I lose the taste of sugar really fast, , I need honey. I realize that, I think of myself as a perfectionist, yet everything I touch I destroy, no, literally destroy, I try to adjust the clock, and I break its cog, I want to fix omelet for breakfast, I pick two eggs, my hands are too strong, I break the eggs, I’m wearing my pants, I tear them (OK maybe I might have just added some weight).
I am here waiting for the people I need in my life, because I realize that I cannot achieve anything to perfection when am alone. My beliefs change every day and I do not know where I truly stand. So much I want to accomplish, but yet so little time. I need help, a solution to my problems, who will get me out of this hole?
My heart hurts, my brain itches, my tummy clenches, the time is too fast, too slow, I need to add my speed, govern it, I am too fast still. Writing but running out of words, I need more reading. My dreams, maybe they need killing, what I go through every day, it needs healing. Mind blown by the thing that my brain is feeling. I can’t explain it. My faith needs nourishing, I need to get out of my own world, deal with my anxiety. It’s so hard, because I do not have the energy, yet there’s a lot in my mind that needs clearing.
I try to live my stagnant life, with people around me moving, they all pry on me thinking, I cannot do it. I live my life, trying not to disappoint those who know me, and boom! I get to understand my twisted personality, and that I am too enclosed within myself, I loose myself, I want things to happen fast without having acted on them. I’m impatient, I don’t take time to understand the truth of what this world has to offer, I don’t give anyone a chance.
I need to have an open mind, work especially with the right people. But I look around me, and nobody is here beside me. So I’m going to keep my stealth, move silently and be my best, I will not give up in realizing the truth inside me. I just have to believe in me, then I can make a change with the little that I know, it might turn out to be bigger than I think. I will no longer wait for people to show up, I’ll go look for them, they must be somewhere waiting for someone like me, the world needs me, I was born with a purpose, and so I must fulfill it.
I’ll be impatient, with myself, because I’ve been too lenient with me, it is time, I’m done thinking and trying to realize myself, because now I’m sure of what I want to be, I am sure of what I have, and it is the will to make a difference in the world that I live. I’m the only one who can release myself from these ropes.
I am here waiting for the people I need in my life, because I realize that I cannot achieve anything to perfection when am alone. My beliefs change every day and I do not know where I truly stand. So much I want to accomplish, but yet so little time. I need help, a solution to my problems, who will get me out of this hole?
My heart hurts, my brain itches, my tummy clenches, the time is too fast, too slow, I need to add my speed, govern it, I am too fast still. Writing but running out of words, I need more reading. My dreams, maybe they need killing, what I go through every day, it needs healing. Mind blown by the thing that my brain is feeling. I can’t explain it. My faith needs nourishing, I need to get out of my own world, deal with my anxiety. It’s so hard, because I do not have the energy, yet there’s a lot in my mind that needs clearing.
I try to live my stagnant life, with people around me moving, they all pry on me thinking, I cannot do it. I live my life, trying not to disappoint those who know me, and boom! I get to understand my twisted personality, and that I am too enclosed within myself, I loose myself, I want things to happen fast without having acted on them. I’m impatient, I don’t take time to understand the truth of what this world has to offer, I don’t give anyone a chance.
I need to have an open mind, work especially with the right people. But I look around me, and nobody is here beside me. So I’m going to keep my stealth, move silently and be my best, I will not give up in realizing the truth inside me. I just have to believe in me, then I can make a change with the little that I know, it might turn out to be bigger than I think. I will no longer wait for people to show up, I’ll go look for them, they must be somewhere waiting for someone like me, the world needs me, I was born with a purpose, and so I must fulfill it.
I’ll be impatient, with myself, because I’ve been too lenient with me, it is time, I’m done thinking and trying to realize myself, because now I’m sure of what I want to be, I am sure of what I have, and it is the will to make a difference in the world that I live. I’m the only one who can release myself from these ropes.
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