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What I want

It's a new day, it's a new dawn,
And I'm not gonna bring myself down
Because of the things that make me frown
A friend told me there's no need to greif, if he doesn't love you then there's no reason to believe in him.
I built castles for me and now everything is crashing down because of you.
You lied to me, it was composed of everything you wanted from me. My body my blood, everything that comprises me.
I gave it all to you only to end up in disbelief
I'm not going to dwell on this one because you are now my past, I wasn't the only one and as usual I'm selfish like that, but it's your fault, u told me that it was just you and I.
Now things have gone sour, my bitter heart bleeds every summer,
There's nobody to wake me up from this slumber, I'm better off without you there's no need to suffer.
Now my skin glows because I'm healed even after we had great supper
I'm happier this way it's what I am used to don't dare use the word forever you give it a bad name
Lonely is my little name
What do I want? You say
Everything I say, but I can only give what you take can only give what I receive and this is what you get from me.
I'm used to being lonely so let it just be.

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  1. NicanoryOctober 30, 2019 at 2:28 AM

    Somebody must have really hurt you for you to pen this down

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