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Obsessive

Yes, I am an obsessive clingy kind of humanoid. You do not want to get involved with me, I will jam up your phone with calls and text messages. All I want is for you to listen to me, look at me, keep an eye on me, love me, hate me, show me the truth of what you really feel, your taste in life, your hearts’ desires so I know what you are all about.
Do not make the mistake of giving me your contacts, you will only regret, appreciate it, the fact that I am ready to have you, accept you with all your dirt. Yes I will clean all them up for you, or better yet, have something to put my mind to, trying to solve everything that has been coming your way, will come your way, is in your way. I am so ready so much that I forget my own identity, forget to fulfill my own duties, because it’s about you that I am thinking. The activity you might be doing right now, what you did yesterday, what you will do tomorrow, yes I will not put food into my mouth if you haven’t, I will not eat unless ours is the same diet.
 I want to be everywhere you are, because my calls you are now not picking, my texts not replying. I’m sick, how are you feeling? Do you even care about me? Then why won’t you reach out to me? Am I the only one who is like this? No, there must be a part of you that won’t let go of that person pestering your mind. Come let me show you what I’m all about, I am ready to give you all I have, I don’t even care if you want it or not, it’s you I want to share it with. Please accept me, I am down on my knees. Just take me for me.
Fine, I might have a problem, with wanting you to let me in, because I already did, I mean let me in. See the problem with me is that I have no trouble letting go, then as I am walking away, you hold my hand, and you don’t want me to go. You enjoy all the attention, are fascinated by my fixation for you. I’m sorry, because the only person I obsess with is me, being obsessive. Good bye, I hope I wasn’t too aggressive. 

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